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December 10th, 2007

Be good to your neighbor...

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I just finished writing part one of Mea Culpa and... At first I didn't like it. I was just frustrated with it, the dialogue bothered me. But as it went on, kinks fixed, and it just became beautiful, and Delilah is so tortured. I see her with hair in her face, squeezing onto the edge of a pew with teeth grinding together as Michael preaches his worries to her... And Michael is so gentle. Do men like that really exist? Of course...Since I know what I am writing, I also know full well than Michael isn't human. So perhaps not.

Speaking of Michael, I neglected to make his character post, mostly because in the end I didn't need his questions. He was simple.

Michael


Courtesy of Far Away Near

His first name is that of the angel's. He had a last name--Cretu--until I realized that he worked better without one. For my purposes, if he didn't have a last name he appeared more...of a wanderer. To truly be without a fixed position in this world. Michael Cretu is the founder The Enigma Project, an amazing band who also partially inspired me on this. But now he is just Michael. He's a gentle, kind, and caring character. So nice... Does he have any flaws? I don't know. But they are supposed to have flaws... and yet I doubt he is a masculine marry-sue. And perhaps his weakness is that he is too nice. I think he is the kind of person who would let someone kill him if he thought it would better the other person... Er, if Michael could be killed? Again, I speak to much! I cannot ruin my ending before it has even been written....

I cannot wait to post this on YWS, but I am in one of those ways that I want this to be as perfect as possible before I post it. Which means it must be allowed to sit for at least one or two days... Ah, but even so, isn't critiquing for editing? And yet I have a sensitive soul... I would much rather be called wonderful and critiqued than simply critiqued. Or perhaps I want to avoid having to fix it. Do I really think there is such a large problem with it that it will require a lot of effort on my part? Ah, fie! That is was writing is... editing. Second I am waiting for Imp's approval to use her poem as a starter piece. It is in no way something I have to do, but something I would very much like to do. I'm not even sure I need it. Why start your story with something that will not aid it? Although, I like it because I think it will give the beginning more of a religious feel before it even starts, and give the feeling that church happened before the start...So then it does serve a purpose, or I am only a loon? Heh, either way. I like--adore and love--her poem.

It might be posted tomorrow, or the day after or.. this weekend. Another part of me also wonders if I should finish the whole thing before editing, although, won't that cause problems if it is a problem through all of it? But it isn't a lot to edit. This might give me practice in editing and perfecting a piece that is in parts, before I hack up Death Machine, yes? I'm bad at imagining large things. They horrify me, because there is so much and I cannot see it all in my head easily. There is a lot to remember. I fear I will go  back to writing Death Machine and forget what things happened before the part where I stopped. Haha, I am just that kind of person.


In any case, I'm excited to have written Mea Culpa. It is... beautiful

December 9th, 2007

Delilah Prynne

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Courtesy of Pcccstli

Her first name, Delilah, I chose because it was in the bible, and because it represents someone of weakness. It is also incredebly beautiful. Her last name was taken from Hester Prynne of The Scarlet Letter. I thought I should give some credit to that which inspired me.

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December 8th, 2007

Mea Culpa

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I think I'm going to name my novella Mea Culpa, Latin for "I am guilty". I have my main characters names: Delilah Prynne and Michael Cretu. They both have meaning behind their name, and I'm currently working on character development because... my plot is too thin! So I have to go off of characters for now. I'm hoping to write an outline, at least a very general one, for it.

This is surprising, anyway. I thought I wasn't going to write until December? Curse you, Sam! She got me thinking. There isn't a way I will finish The Idiot by tomorrow evening. Ah, oh well...


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Some times afterwards

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I'm not writing much  now. Why? Break! Yes... *dies* NaNoWriMo sucked the life from my bones, figuratively. I love writing still, but I need a break. I'm taking December to devote to reading (The Idiot, currently) and school work. I have a huge lit. research paper I'm working on for The Scarlet Letter and finals are coming up. It sounds good to me that I am not wrapped up in a novel at the moment.

I have sworn to myself that when I come back from break (January) I will start working on the "Second half" (though it might not be as much as a half, who knows?) of Death Machine. January may also be a busy month, though. I will be getting ready for my trip in February. I'm going to DC about the third week in February for a Youth Leadership confrence and I need to do some research  before hand so I know what I am  rambling about.

Never fear, though, I seem to have a large mass of things to eventually work on:

Death Machine - I want a first draft by this summer, so I can spend this summer editing it, or, pretending to edit it..? I will also be going on vacation, doing reading for lit class, and possibly taking German II online so I can hop into German III. I'm hoping to have a busy summer. I usually "waste my time". Of course, if I'm sitting at the computer it appears to be wasting time, but really I'm editing... or should be. I think Death Machine might get/deserves a new title soon. I'm not sure it "fits" anymore.

Avoir L'espoir - It also needs a new title. This is my Russian romance piece I was working on before Germans took over my mind. The Idiot reminds me of it. I still really love it. Not sure when I will work on it; I don't have the current knowledge, imo, to do it properly. *shrugs* But I do love it.

Other - My religious, sin, faith piece I had rambled on before. I still really wish to write it. I have a few more details pertaining to my MC although they are all incredebly nameless and faceless. But I want to do it. Haha. Vito Cretu? I am not sure it works. I may just do Micheal, though I do not wish too. hahah.


So that is my update, for now. As it is, I direct all my readers to go to my reading blog: [info]the_reader42


Do widzenia!

December 1st, 2007

Widget

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Ende...

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NaNoWriMo is over. In the end I had 57,200 words. I'm still going for more, though. Ja, of course, why not? My novel isn't over. I didn't have any time to write this week, not that I wanted to either. I finished the competition. A pox upon endings! I'm doing it later. So I have two things going... Death Machine and then my novella on sin... It can get done later. I want a month to forget I'm a writer. Besides, I have school finals and papers and... *drowns*


My play went on for the first night last night!! I made people cry, and laugh really loud. They loved it. I loved it. It was an amazing feeling. I'm excited to go see it again tonight. In about a month it will  be online (You Tube, probably) and I will be spreading the link around like peanut butter. I don't have much to say. But, being the first day that isn't NaNoWriMo I thought I would say something...

November 24th, 2007

I found her!

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She was hiding inside of this weeks Entertainment Weekly. Sure, it's Keira Knightley, but I love her anyway. She has to be one of the prettiest modern actresses I've seen in a while. She radiates beauty. The advertisement of her in Atonement shocked--it's Hedwig!




She has that perfect No, I refuse to smile for anything look. That's been the problem I've had with finding a good face for Hedwig--everyone smiles too damn much. Hedy is one of those people who doesn't smile, and in fact, as I've written her lately, I have a feeling she smiles too much. Her smile is a rarity; she must be incredebly happy to actually be smiling, rather than appearing horrified and possibly on the verge of tears... She's like a bottled well of emotion, with incredebly love and passion and sadness and all you could think of. She has to be the best female character I've written ever, and I'm still having a bit of trouble placing her down now that she is in love. She was find before hand, but how would she be once in love? I think she's give in too easily to the love, at least, from a social point. I think she would be less willing to smile and say kind words.

I'm hoping to write about 5,000 words today. I know I'm no where near the end, and it's frustrating. I'm also having trouble with catching up on sleep. I can't wait for December, or, the end of the novel, and regular sleep schedules... *sigh*

You think I would be glad that my novel is lasting this long. I did want it to be 75k or more, so I'm happy, right? Eh. Yes, but not so much. I thought I would finish it before November ended, and I really doubt it now. This up coming week is going to leave no room for writing. I have a load of make up homework I can feel coming, and then Friday and Saturday I will be pretending to be theater troupe nerd, and hanging out at the showing of Flowers for the Wake and the other one acts.


I look forward to putting together those small ideas I had earlier, but I do not look forward to ever writing again for a long, long time. Hahah. This was real hard. Maybe I just won't do NaNoWriMo next year. Really, I need to put all my strength and effort into Death Machine because I may never do a better job than this. Not that I am down playing myself, but rather, that I am holding this story on a rather high pedastile. And has it ever come to your mind that perhaps Death Machine isn't the best title for it? I'll have to ponder some more when I finish writing the first draft.

November 23rd, 2007

And then the Russians invaded and everybody was executed for war crimes.

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This is turning out to be a real annoying novel to write.

I did hit 50k though and that... is the goal, right? Well, see, my novel is no where near done. I am considering just throwing in the line that this entry is titled after, and calling it good. (I can fix it later, right?) but the scenes coming up are good, there are just so many of them! I swear, I'm going to die. This novel is going to take me so long to finish! Well, I can at least keep in mind that it will be a lot better than last years novel, yeah? Of course it will. It already is, haha. And I so look forward to editing. I screwed up a scene which meant that I had to change a lot of later things around, and then I added something to fix a plot hole which only created another plot hole. (Wow.. That's really bad.) I'm just going to ignore the holes for now. It's just...ew. Very swiss cheese like. Beautiful swiss cheese, but still.

I love this novel with all of my soul, but can't it just end?! I'm either going to finish it this month, and if not, I give myself the first week of December. If it isn't done by then, it is not my top priority to finish it. No. Because I like taking a break and not dying, please, just for this once. hahah. One thousand more words and I will be back on my "schedule" I thought I would never catch up with it but I guess I'm magic or... just incredebly psychotic and avec un message de mort...

At least Rammstein is comforting me on my way through insanity, ja? And Sam, too: "Total change of subject- my shift key was stuck and I was freaking out." I love her so much, I could hug her until her eyes popped out of her head. (Although, you know, I don't really want her to die... hmmmm) Less violence on my part with that one, desole...

I'm going to go write that last one thousand of the night and... yeah. Curse over how long this novel is going to be.

November 22nd, 2007

Turkey...ooer, yum.

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I think I'm most horrified by the fact that I am so close to the 50,000 word mark and yet I feel rather far from the actual end of my story... I really wanted to finish last night, but it just didn't happen...I did write 5k yesterday, so it was OK that I didn't finish. I'm really in no-outline-land and it's really hard for me to contain myself and know where the hell I'm going.

And somehow I forgot I made a plot hole. But then I fixed it! I was so proud of me. But then I got confused because it screwed up other events and... then I fixed it again. Haha.

If I don't finish this novel soon I'm going to drill nails in my eyes. There is no way I am working on this over Christmas break. I want to have some time to read! I miss reading so much! (Well...Except for what is required. The Scarlet Letter needs to get finished this weekend.)

Hell, I'm at 47k and Hedwig isn't even dead. That's a problem. XD I have a feeling I've got about 20k more to go...If I get to 70k and I'm still not done, I'm going to be so upset. I wanted this to be long, but I never knew it would be THIS long. I'm just made that it is taking me so long to do. *sigh*

And you know, I still haven't caught up with where I should be! How upsetting?

November 20th, 2007

Ah Blah Blah!

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I need to do some writing today. All the writing is causing me to get carpel tunnel--can you believe it? I can. Its from using my thumb on the space bar too often.. meeeh.

The girl in the picture of my avatar reminds me of Hedwig... the bright, once in a while smile. Damn, she's so purity. She's such the angel. I'm really going to hate when I have to kill her, but, ah, so it shall be! Ludger, all the same, I am fine killing him off. Doesn't he deserve it? Completely.

Maybe I'm just scared to end it, you know how you get attached to something and then when the final moment comes you're a little shocked that it is actually here? That might be it. Or I might just be feeling lazy. We'll find out.

I have ideas floating around, and I've had this particular one for a while. Something to do with religion, or faith, and morality, and defying the right, and love, sin, chastity, purity... The themes stand out but no characters or plot, though this man begs me to make him a character and give him life, but he doesn't look like the type to lock himself into a church to pray for hours as a form of repentance. He's more of a researcher, someone looking for the secrets that might get you killed. He reminds me of The Historian for some reason. I want to write him into something. At the same time, this religious/faith theme keeps prodding me, maybe I can make a short story. It reminds me of Sade, which reminds me that I want to read something of Sade's...Morality, ah, how you can bend.

Oh, and I found out that I am being published. When the thing actually gets out, don't you worry, I will be advertising it like wild, haha. Go me. Death Machine cannot wait to be thrown aside and let simmer; it wants to be rolled through to perfection, and places with more laces and loops and tied tightly together until it is choking and can't breath--but breaths with complete perfection...  I need to work out kinks? ja? und, was mache ich in meiner freizeit? Nicht... hahha. Stupid German one.

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Credit to MaryMadeleine

November 18th, 2007

Sans Sleep

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dilbert
I'm quickly--quicker than I would like--running right into No Outline Land. I'm horrified. I need filler, and I need it fast. I need plot, conflict, happenings. I need something to continue the story with and it isn't written down and hasn't been thought up yet. Sure, I could just forget filer and write what I know is going to happen, and I'll still have 50k if not more than that, but I don't want to! There needs to be something that happens here, at this point, I need more time to pass. So, I have to figure it out. And....soon. Today.

I didn't get to where I wanted to be yesterday, which is incredebly upsetting, but I did get really, really close. I can get back on target by writing another 5,000 words today but the chances of that happening are small. I have a lot of school work, and what not.. not to mention No Outline Land. But I'm going to try to write as much as possible, anyway. With holiday coming, I'll hopefully have a lot of spare time and I can pound out a lot of words. I just really really want my plot to be in its best shape possible when it's done, otherwise figuring it out during second draft time is going to be even worse than figuring it out now.... nye?

Or, what should I do?

November 17th, 2007

This is your mind on writing!

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I think I feel my brain oozing out of my ears...

I just wrote 5,000 or so words in my attempt to catch up to my original goal. That was... wow. That was hard. I wrote 3k in an hour. That kind hurt. And it wasn't a bad 3k either it was a good 3k.



*flails* Is that not just so.... ! I wanted to scream when I was writing it. Seriously. Ach, to think of what will happen to Hedy? ... oy.

November 14th, 2007

Love, or Something like that

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Finally hit 30k...


My report card shows that if I can hit 43k by the end of Saturday I will be back on my schedule. I would really, really like to do that. A lot. So I think I'm going to dedicate Friday and Saturday to writing until my brain leaks out my ears. Then I need to die, and clean my room.

I feel like I can't walk without tripping over papers. XD

November 11th, 2007

Half way to somewhere, Ja?

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dilbert
So... yeah. I hit that 25k mark.

And writing wasn't so bad. It got better as I went along. I'm happy again. Everything is OK now. Except I was really unsure on how to write the nearly sex scene, which means when I write the actual sex scene it will be even worse... hahah. Oy.

I absolutely loved this chapter because it was funny. Not.. really in content but I did a lot of funny things in it because I had nothing else to do. Which was fun. I also hit 25k. Which is good. I'm also only on chapter ten or something like that, and even if I cut a whole bunch more chapters out, if I just keep this up... the novel will be long. :D I'm happy again!!

Which is surprising. Wow. Writing can be so...fickle? It's like love, only worse, because when it hugs you, it also stabs you... hmmm.


Armin is in love with Hedwig! eee. And he doesn't know what to think. It's lovely.

November 10th, 2007

Ich hab' kein lust

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I'm completely at that point where I want to smash my head against a wall and cry in a lover's arms. In fact the song I'm currently listening to says it all: ich habe kein lust. I don't feel like it...

I finally finished writing chapter seven which turned out to be like rolling through dirt and pushing your face in mud, only mud that never washes off, ever. It was nasty. No, it is nasty. I really hate it. It ended up only being about 1.5k which completely pisses me off. I can only hope that tomorrow, I turn over a "new leaf" and in the middle of doing math problems I will suddenly be hit with the greatest idea and love and passion for my characters, again (not that I don't have it now, just not at the part I am at!!!) and I will write and suddenly have 30k!


Ah, dreams... they are sooo nice. I got really NaNoisitic at the end:

“I am cold, papa! I need clothes!” Armin laughed and walked to the hall. And this is the end of the chapter.

Yeah, I just really needed to find a way to end that dang chapter. It was making me rather angry...


I have lost my passion. It's infuriating. But I'm a bit too tired to injure things. I now remember why I hate NaNoWriMo so much... *sigh* At least when I finish this I will never have to contemplate first drafts again. Until next year.
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